new year, new beginnings

Happy 2013 everyone! :) I was able to go to the States for Christmas and spend two weeks with my family in the cold weather! I loved being cold and having lots of snow! I was looking forward to the heat of Thailand again though, only to land and have it be 75 degrees! It was FREEZING! I couldn't believe it! haha.....Only people who have spent time in Thailand would understand how 75 degrees could be cold! :)

I am really glad that I was given the chance to go home for a short time. As I shared in my last blog post, I was so uncertain about my future and what to do. I didn't know what to do or what I was going to decide. I used the time at home to gain clarity and really seek the Lord and what His Will for me might be for next year. I feel like it is the right decision to move back to the States next year. It was an emotional decision to make for sure! Everytime someone would even ask me about my plans for next year I would start to cry! I think my mom was starting to get a little worried about me! I am not usually so emotional.

I was starting to second guess my decision because of how emotional I was getting. I spent sometime in prayer on the plane ride back (I had enough time! :)) and I just asked the  Lord to fill me with His peace. I was worried about what I would feel landing in Bangkok...knowing it was my last time. As soon as I landed though and stepped off the plane, I was filled with such an overwhelming sense of peace! I know that this is what is right for me. God is so faithful! Even yesterday as I handed in my form letting them know I would not be returning, I felt such a strong sense of peace!

I know that it will still be emotional to say goodbye and I know I still might waver occassionally in my decision but I can always be reminded of that peace I experienced in the airport.

I don't know what my future in the States will look like. I don't know what I will do when I get there or what my life will consist of. This week though my verse my students are learning is Matthew 6:33 "Seek first his kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." As long as I concern myself with seeking the Lord, being dedicated to spending time with Him in prayer and being a lover of His Word, He will guide and direct my steps. I am resting in His Promise and His Goodness! :) Thank you for all of your prayers and support!